Was typing on FB to start complaining, but was afraid to do the explaination or comfrontation after that... So..... I thought of you.. My abandoned blog. Glad you are still around.

I wish I could have done more.

If I can be given with all the access to solve certain issue, I would definitely do so even if it is wee hour of a monday night. Hate this helpless feeling where thousands of people are counting on you, yet you can't do anything for them in return. Sucky feeling.

To you, it might be a worthless piece of shit, but to me it is a precious gem.

While typing my complain, blog brings me memory of my lost friends.
Well not toally lost, but friends that drifted apart.

Though I can't remember exactly what happened, it might be impossible to be back like what we used to be anymore. No matter how a wound heals, scar stays isn't it?

I should have done more... to rescue my friendship, instead, I isolated myself from the rest. Well not as if they bothered to really find out why I did that, which makes me wonder if I should still brood over past..

Just a random sudden surge of emotion... I know I will be all good next morning.
JY