Swayness...

Yesterday... Went to buy lunch cos it was raining. I was super tired and were leaning against the wall in the lift. When I reach the office door, i felt something cold and prickling. I suspected is wood stred or what and tried to shake it off.

When i reach my desk, SOMETHING IS NOT RIGHT. That cold and prickling thing seems to have shifted. I managed to catch it inside my jeans near my knee there, I pressed hard....... Some liquid soaked a small portion of my Jeans.. I was like holding that spot and headed to the door. After walking two steps i turned back and saw jeff n carol staring at the floor.

It's a HALF DEAD COCKROACH!!!!!!!!! WTF I squashed a cockroach in my JEANS.
Being digusted i chiong to the executive toilet took off my jeans and wash my leg like MAD. Aww this sucks, the first cockroach i ever kill died in my pants!!

I don't enjoy going out in 2s anymore, except for dating with bf of course. I don't enjoy going out in 3s either i prefer more!

Going to PCbunk outing tomorrow yeah!

Brought mum out for late late mother's day celebration.
Met jie & her husband @ bugis with my mum & mei. Had tepanyaki. Mum was like talking to the chef, eh your chawamushi is very smooth, very nice how u did that? The rest of us were like DIAO =.="" Sweat, but the chef was quite nice to actually talk to her and told her they added some japanese ingredient that's why it's so smooth and stuffs.

Then we headed to Far East to cut hair.

Yes I went for a haircut! And no one realised i cut my hair. As usual.....

I told this china hairdresser i wanted shoulder length, apparently he don't understand the word "Shoulder". I have proof I did cut!

LOOK I did cut SOME hair.

Before!~

After~! Whaha NO DIFFERENT! =.=

Oh yah I initially i wanted to treat mummy to lunch, but sis husband decided to treat my mum for the first time to lunch, i shan't snatch with him. Sis decided to pay for my OUR haircut! I didn't want to snatch with her too. =D

Jie left and we continued shopping.... I spotted this pair of jeans and went to try it on, mum saw that it was quite nice and went to try the same pattern jeans too. So we ended up buying the same pair of jeans, but different size of course. And finally no one snatch with me, bought her a pair of Jeans.

No life. Work work work..................... All i gain from working is $$ barely enough to cover my study loan, transport and makan, dark eye circle, bad mood..
Work is like war where u get all the backstabs.
Friends seems normal but i can feel something had changed.

I need retail therapy. It's GSS again, gonna grab some tops. Who want go shopping? ASk me along pls.

Was reading this story from a podder. http://www.flowerpod.com.sg/forums/index.php?showtopic=65579.

That scumbag cheated her body and money and made her miserable. But the shiok thing is that, everyone sympathizes with her and started cursing and swearing at that bastard for his karma. I hate such ppl who cheated others for monetary or pleasure. Sucks to core.

I HAVE A FAMILY in AUDITION! But no more guild in cabal.

I don't know what i did wrong or what I should have done earlier. But I can swear nothing leak out from my side. I was always a listener more than a speaker. Everyone should have realised that.

Friendship is so fragile.

We are still very different after being tgt for so long. I had more interest in watching "what happens in vegas", "congkak" or "made of honor", but i think he wanted "chocolate".
"Chocolate" is a thai fighting show, i don't even like Jackie chan fighting show i doubt i will enjoy Chocolate. He din like romance show, so we ended up watching "Accuracy of Death" which none of us really wanted to watch, but it juz happen that the slot timing was perfect. I would say this movie is quite meaningful but a little too draggy.

Though we are very different, we did not force each other to become our desirable other half and lasted fine for 6 years. I am very proud of him and myself. :)


Random thoughts

I am getting worried.. I am suppose to be graduating in December 2008, but, my last lesson was in March 2008. There wasn't any schedule planned for me due to my major is IS.
I had been pushing for my notes and stuffs for IS since December last year. Was I conned? The school was ceritified with case trust. My course coordinator still replies to my email and stuffs, but i am still worried.

My blog is so plain w/o pictures. Reason? Bad phone camera. I'm gonna take over my sis cam since she have shifted and left the camera behind it's gonna be mine.

Some people just gets me on my nerves. REally hATED being small, others tend to bully you especially people from the same gender. I think that is a reason why this particular girl keep bullying me. I do agree in a fight or what i am bound to lose, but since i am small, u shouldn't feel threatened by me, why bother to bully me since u gain nothing out of it. U r juz a pea-size brain bitch with a 四肢发达body. We are equally pathetic.

Finally met PH and got my christmas present. But i forgot to bring hers. Was exhausted after the night shift, woke up at 6 and met them at 8 under seok house to hitched a ride.

Had ajisen for dinner and went TOPONE KTV opposite bugis junction. It SUCKS. The lady who "Promoted" the KTV said there were different themes on different floors. We chose the theme "cold" sth sth. It was like an oven, first time i did not feel cold in KTV. The sound system sucks, no remote control too, we have to alternate ourself to use that corner to dedicate songs.
I don't think i will go there again. Oh yar it cost $25.90 from 10.30pm - 3.30am.

Somehow i felt being used.
Friends...

I thought we were friends, i treated you as one of my best friend. I let you have your way in everything, that is something which i had never given anyone before.
But ended up you tried flirting with my bf? treated me transparent cos I had a talk with another friend without you?

I thought you treated me as one of your best friend. Apparently with the existance of your real BEST friend, I am nothing.

I felt used...

05 May 08

Went KTV for fei fei's farewell party. Brought Camera along but 0 pics. It was fun, but a pity had to leave early cos bf had to work the next day. A few of them really had nice voice, this was one of the few occasion that i enjoyed listening more than singing.
Had liquor and saw how funny people became when they are drunk.

07 May 08
It was our off day. Post night shift, slept 3-4 hrs and woke up waiting.
he slept at 12+am the previous night till 6+pm..
Saw him online even b4 receiving his sms.
Was pestered by mum.
from eating dinner @ home? what time you going out? where you going?
.....to......
Are you still going out? So late still haven't go out? I cooked dinner, just eat some.

He knew i was waiting...

As usual, no where to go in particular and he'll ask where i wan to go.
I knew he wanted somewhere near, suggested tamp. Apparently, he wanted somewhere even nearer. From his reply i knew he wanted to meet at bedok where he didn't need to even travel and of course don't need to send me home.

I always thought family was first, game was 2nd and i was 3rd.
I think i thought too highly of myself.
I am sick and tired of waiting waiting and waiting and get a reluctant date.
I don't think i want to keep myself free whenever u r free anymore.

This will be a very long post.....

3rd May 2008

It's our 6th Anniversary~!
Time flies, It was like yesterday that he 1st held my hand..
High Tea buffet @ paramount hotel
Not worth it. Food no variety and tasted really awful.
He was disappointed too cos when he was younger he frequent this place and the standard really dropped a lot. There were this french couple sitting behind us and talking to the poor waiter in french. Chicken talking to duck. But i keep having this feeling that the couple is making fun of the poor waiter.

Went to watch iron man. This show is super hot, the tickets are either sold out or selling fast in most of the cinemas. We finally get the tickets at the 3rd cinema that we went.
I would say this show is quite nice, having a small laugh occassionally here and there. The show lasted for about 2 hrs. By the time we finish watching, its 9pm.

This year I did not buy him any present, we were both too busy to get each other present. Nevertheless I am contented with this date, just the two of us.

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1st May
I enjoy working on a public holiday.....
Glad lin was the one helping me to arrange my shift, she helped me arrange in a way that i will be working on both holiday in MAY. ExTRa $$

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30 Apr
Met Seok for dinner @ bugis. We went to MOF, I have been craving for the Macha Sundae Ice Cream =D~~~~ I ordered just a salmon salad to ensure there are ample space to finish my Ice Cream. She ordered some chicken don stuff, no complain mean not too bad i suppose.
The spoon for the ice cream is super long~ and played ard for a while. I guess I was quite tired and looked a little sian cos of that.

PH called seok during the dinner, as usual, i always greet ph by calling her name loudly.
Guess what? Silence in return...
I thought she couldn't hear me,

me: "Hello" ?
she: "ahhnn"
me: "You know who am i?"
she: "Dunno la!"

Who am I and dunno la repeated for a few time ba, she sounded really disturbed and irritated, forget it handed the phone back to seok. Don't want talk anymore.

1 word can really bring a person from mountain to under valley.

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29 Apr
Dear's 1st day of school. Super happy that he is back to school. No more accidental spewed words that might be sensitive to him. I am happy not because he is getting a higher qualification so he will get a better pay job. It is that i feel that he really grown a lot. From someone whom skip school everyday and had no plans for the future, to someone who became concern with his future and want to make the path brighter.


Rush project in Office after work.
Date due is 30th Apr, so after work stayed back and rush.. Ethics and Governance assignment is not as easy as it seems to be. Initially when i first saw the question, its seems like personal opinion and so I dilly dally.... but after actually started doing it, quite chim, have to compare everything with the LAW made my life super difficult.

Ultimately the fault lies with CABALSEA. I wAs quite hooked on this game previously.
Dear came back and accompanied me after his study.
He was super tired.
Work 9-6
Study 7-10
10+ came back and accompanied till morning.
Guilty..

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Tepanyaki @ PS on 26 Apr
Met my colleague and bf after their work at PS for dinner. We went to the tepanyaki place at @ PS. It was my first time eating tepanyaki with the chef cooking in front of me. The food is not bad, super love the mushroom. Cost is alright i guess around 20+ per person.