I am so sad....



You have been with me for so long and brought about so much pain.. I thought u will be gone for good... but... haiz.... u will still haunt me till the day i die...... I hate u



Morning at 10++ went doctor and did some treament with my mei. 12+ met jason and get 2 free sample dress. Will post the pic when i upload it. The dress is not bad la, but not to my likings. 12+ - 1+ went dental. And i am super sad since my dental.



I was quite excited as this is the last appointment i have with my dental. He took out my retainers n taught me how to wear..

me: How come only got 1? Lower one don't need?

him: No, upper one only, there you have those on the lower one (pointint at the cements n wires behind my teeth)

I thought those were there to support my teeth when the retainers are not ready...

But hell no! Those cements and wires will be there haunting me for the rest of my life, affecting my speech, rubbing against my tongue, having food particles stucked...

Teared in the washroom..... but pick myself up and called bf. He's going to get a car n fetch me, but the rental got delayed, so i went to look for him at aljunied.



Got the car, headed to his house to take his laptop then to CGH to see his grandma. She look much better today.....

I can't believe it........

I just check my transaction history..... And i actually spent almost 2K from 1st June - today... And i have to pay for more things tml.... Maybe to some of you spending this much a month is nth! but not to me! Ususally with my loan i spend the most 1.2 K per month, which mean that i overspent by $800 this month!

Tomorrow have to pay 400 to doctor and 150 to dental..... sighz..... I am not going to eat for the rest of the year.....!

Went lavender to grab a few webpage to edit, earned some cash.

Dear's grandmother got admitted again... She is so poor thing... From 6 years ago that i first saw her, she always comment me on this and that with so much power....... As the year passed, i can really see her getting weaker and skinnier... She's hospitalized for skin infection, her wound is really big and deep... You just feel so sad looking at her.... When everyone is leaving, she look sad... through her eyes it seems as though she is saying.. Don't leave me here alone...

Random pics playing around with my cam

Trying out the smile detection with flash, it works. My wide smile

We are trying really hard

Ok he won

Moody

I realise.... No one can be trusted...

Imagine......

1 day u were super pissed at this someone and u were discussing about stuff regarding another SOMEONE. My tone and response suxs cos i was really pissed. So this someone went to tell that SOMEONE about what i said. So that SOMEONE became unhappy with me.
But hey i was pissed by this someone first. That tone n response was not intentional.

One random day, bf started telling lies.... Obviously from the expression u noe he is behaving weird. So quarrelled. I was rather down and confided to my good fren..... end up.........
next day, another friend went to ask my bf abt what happened...... (If u get what i mean)
I told u bcos i treated u as my good fren, i don't need EVERYONE to share my secret.

The day b4, my bf told me sth a little conerning him and a little concerning work. Then my frenssssss were discussing on this topic..... so I listen and added some remark. I thought it's over.... but no!! There's episode 2 for this..... from who? good fren's good fren(It's okay if u dun understand)

NOW, this fren of mine is helping his wife to ask for information on some gadgets i juz bought.
I asked, how the hell u know i have that. And oh well is from his bro.

Hey PPL, if u are too bored and has got nothing to share with ur other friend or other half, i am SURE they are not freaking 1 bit intertested in my life or me. Please do not mention me.

Who can teach me how to judge a person not by the look? They all lookED innocent and nice.
And all turned into a devil within split seconds.

WTF with girls nowadays. Bitches! SLutS!
Couldn't help it but to feel angry for thingsssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss that bf is trying to hide from me.

Met Wen after so many mths. I just wanted someone to be there... But after he started complaining about his life and everything I started complaining about mine too, our tears just drop uncontrollably. And hey! when i cry i think i needed tissue more than shoulder, offering me tissue would be more appropriate. I think we almost drown the balcony flower pots.

Jim joined the sorrow club, cos his wife went clubbing without him and baby. And he sucks.......... Knowing that it's a sorrow club, he keep cracking joke and i felt like a retard laughing and crying together with 2 idiots.

Woohoo~~

Tadah~

My souvenir~~~~~~~

Finally, no more metal teeth... The process was scary...... Many tools were used, and you get all kinds of liquids splashing on ur face.

but.... i feel sad...

Met bf after dental appointment, we walked all the way from cityhall to marina, caught a movie, ate dinner.. and HE DIDN'T REALISED I ACTUALLY REMOVE MY BRACES!!! Sigh.. and no one actually did..

9+ - Went to work.. no one realise...
12+ - Going to lunch.. FINALLY one saw
6+ - FINALLY 2 more realise...

:( Maybe cos i didn't feel comfortable smiling or laughing. I think my teeth looks naked.... more roots were exposed so my front teeth appear much longer.... after yrs of unreachable brushing of teeth, it is definitely more yellow...

Notice my stiff smile?

My teeth feels naked and weird......

After much drinking and not having enough sleep for soooooooo many days......... I actually slept at 6am and woke up at 8am. Tried hard and force myself to sleep at 1 and woke at 3pm. Can you imagine how bad my complexion was?

Went suntec having a thought in my mind, die die muz get a camera.

I have been saying that I wanted a digicam for years~ every year i went to test n look but no action taken... until................................ Ta Dah!!

My 1st camera~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ =D

I know sony cam is not very good but i go for the outlook~ Love it =D

Haven't explore much... didn't have model to test my Cam...

Ok i mentioned i slept a total of 4 hrs yesterday, i went to work at night.... And guess what? I am Still AWAKE now~ Wide AWAKE~~ I am an insomniac... I think i need sleeping pills.

14 Jun 08

Celebrated Ph's birthday... Had some crystal jade korean steamboat at taka, i quite like the soup and the oyster~!! Drools~ Heard jj complained about her near death experience in vietnam with seok n ph adding words of "Sympathy" as and when.

(Tio TOK! part 1)Oh ya seok brought ph to choose her own cake earlier b4 i met them at 8++. So we needed a lighter for the candles.. and i headed to 7-11 and bought a stupid cheapo looking bloody common light for $1.20!!

Then we headed to clark quay, cut cake along the river....

and then went to Meiyi's so called "PUB", Lunar. The crowd there are not really young. I see people ranges between 20+ to 40+ 50?

As usual seok n ph decided to open a bottle of chivas for 178 + 4 entrance fee waived, which is suppose to be a better bargain cos entrance/person is 15. o.O well + the drinks it is suppose to be cheaper, no idea how the calculation went by though.

(Tio TOK! part 2)
It is a usual thing for us to buy some mentos when we drink, it is suppose to help in sth. SO i went to the convenient store opposite Lunar and grab two mentos. ANd these freaking common mentos selling at 90cent -$1 outside adds up to FOUR BUCKS.. Imagine 4 bucks for menthos =.=

Though i look really red, but no! I was not drunk. I don't even feel high...

Whose "Gui Lian" is uglier?

Ph's?

Seok's?

Mine?

Grrr~~~~~~~ Planned to sleep till 6pm and off to work at 8+ 9pm, my plan was runined!!!
Stupid renovation + digging of ground outside my house early morning.

Just did my test online. And i passed! I didn't cheat and didn't refer to book.. I merely did my search on the internet. LOL i think this test is to give mark, let's see how will i fare in the exam in few days' time.

I am thinking of getting a camera. Preferbably 8 mega pix price 400+ max. I really like Sony T70 for its design but the quality is "Are you sure that is 8 mega pix?". Maybe i am comparing it to canon that's why. Still debating, by hook or by crook have to decide by sat when i finally have time to go down to IT show before celebrating ph's bday.

Was browsing through my favourite forum and saw the thread on visiting Tawai, which shulin has been very on in jioing us to go tgt. I really want to go...
Imagine i had the hope and sponsorer the previous year to bring me there, but much things happened and was canceled... It's not as expensive as i thought it would be, plane by jetstar + the famous rainbow hotel $500++ during non peak. Affordable...
Let's see if the bonus i get end of this mth favours me to go for a trip.

Went to dental last night for my LAST check up. Doc did nothing much, just look look see see and said "Good! Come take out next week" Wooohoooooooo

Jason was commenting that i suck at advertising.
My reply, do you think i will leave you in the lurch???
Immediately: YES!!

Not true! I am kind enough to try again.

Any pretty and kind young lady is willing to assist my not too bad looking bro in taking a few young n energetic pix to be posted on his webby and at the same time earn some money and popularity?

Happy~

I think I am quite lucky this month, effort and time put in were not in vain.... Not going to tell u all what is it... ASk me if u are really kaypo and i'll share.

Jason has been selling male accessories online and the responses were not bad, so he imported some female accessories too.. So he needed a female model and out of conveniency, he asked if i could help him wear some accessories and take a few photos... I was like thinking.......... Why not? It's extra cash.....
The only condition was CANNOT SHOW FACE, can only take pics of my Limbs and the most neck. Imagine all the models for other online shop are pretty/cute/sexy don't make me PS.
So the slot is currently opened!
Any not bad looking girl dun mind helping my fren in taking some photos and earn a very little sum of money please let me know.

Working night shift for this whole week ZERO $$ spent on entertainment, which is a good thing cos i have an extra 300 bucks to add on to my liabilities for my retainer. REtainer? YES!! I am going to remove my braces very soon! I miss my smooth smooth teeth, hopefully my speech problem can be resolve too.

Went E!Hub to watch Sex & the city~

E!hub has many eating place, not much shopping place and the toilet is so weird. Imagine u walk into the entrance, turn left to male right to female. After u finish doing ur business, walk to the basin, the male & female basin is actually linked. U can see the male washing hand, they can see u combing ur hair in the mirror... Eeks don't like it.

I so love the movie, I love that puppy, I love the heels and I love the strong bond between those girls. The only thing i hated was the MAN in the movie. They kinda sucks.
I started to bombard bf with lotza question related to the movie.
Like..
Dear where are my love letters?
Will u auction for a diamond ring for me?
Are u going to propose like what he did?
Will u back out on our wedding day?

His response was rather funny....
There u have many what... (the last 1 i received should be dated 5 yrs ago!)
No response (he just laugh it off)
I will put on the shoe for u
FOR WHAT?

This is my bf... No sweet talk...

CutE!

Alex's son is SUPER cuTE! He keep smiling smiling and smiling.. He has this cheeky smile exactly like his father. He's uttering some baby language........ After listening carefullly it sound like "da pa pa" hit the father... Then everytime we say da pa pa, he will go and hit alex.. Muhaha super cute. I managed to con him into letting me hug. Wahahaha...

I miss my god daughter~~ I miss the gathering where everyone get together and crap...... But my sucky shift.. I always couldn't make it........ T_T

Going to E!Hub for the first time~ Hope that place is nice.

I decided to complain a lot. Don't read it if it is too emotion for you.

Swayness continues..
Dental appointment was suppose to be on Wed night, cos had to work, change it to thurs.
My plan was dental @4 meet friend @ 5.

So i reach the clinic at 4pm sharp and the nurse took my name and said oh u r early today. Then i was like o.O was i always late? Took a seat and waited... usually it takes 5-15 mins to reach my turn.
15 mins later.....
I started seeing ppl coming later than me get to see the doc first. Went to question the nurse, she said on book it state my appointment time to be @ 4.45pm! Like WTF, through the phone u told me 4pm now on book bcome 4.45pm? And seeing that i came early, cannot let me go first? SMSed to complain to bf and fren to postpone our date....
And this resulted in a tiff.....

I have difficulty pronouncing words clearly, I have limited vocabs in my dictionary, I can't understand words that are Not considered SIMPLE english. SO? Big deal? Others dun have difficulty interpreting my words. Even if they didn't understand, response would be different.
I am not precious, not entertaining and always emotion, cherishing me is unnecessary.

Felt awfully lousy, and pissed with waiting. Finally it's my turn, paid my last installment for my braces and was entitled to 2 lucky dips.

Swayness continued to continue.

2 person in front of me, 1st, an umbrella! (It was raining at that point of time)
2nd Pink cosmetic pouch. (not bad)
Me. 2 dips.
1st - TISSUE BOX!
2nd - STILL TISSUE BOX!
What else can I say?

Decided to find bf in the office.
Did I mention why I love my bf so much? He was the only one who cared to cheer me up and accompany me during my sadest period of time in life yrs ago. And where were all my friends? Or did i even had one? Don't remember even getting an sms... Anyway, that became a part of me that I want him to be there when i was unhappy. I will be contented with just a hug.

Went retail therapy again~ lucky the month was ending and haven't get my pay. He got a laptop cooler & a lappy super cushion bag. And me? Bought nth!